July 01, 2009

Over it

I’ve been so lazy about my eating for the better part of 2 months now. I don’t get it. I went months and months totally on plan and feeling awesome about it and not struggling for a second (ugh, what a lucky bitch I was!) I don’t get how it can go from being so easy to such a struggle so quickly. LAME!

It sucks not losing weight, and worse, seeing it go up 5 lbs, 8 lbs, whoa nelly! I’m over it. I still have SO far to go, I can’t be getting lackadaisical about it now. I will not settle for 300 lbs. I have to bring in the reigns and get back to my healthier ways. It’s always so hard the first week or two, as I’m going through withdrawal, and then it just seems to come so easily and naturally. I want to get to that place again. And I will. If I learned anything from the past 16 months it’s that it’s never too late to start over.

In other news:

I’ll be heading down to Kansas City for 6-8 weeks to spend some time with my stepfather and to help him out around the house and yard. I’m taking my laptop, but whether or not I’ll be online will depend on if I can pilfer a connection. Last time I was down there the only area in the whole house that I could find one was in the garage, atop a table saw, of all places. I hope I’m a little luckier this time.